I’m over at Scary Mommy today talking about little sisters trying desperately to keep up with their big brothers.


 Despite my son being generally soft-hearted and sweet, he is still a boy. And boys are…gross. They do gross things and they also put their bodies into perilous situations. And my boy has a little sister who is watching all of the gross and sometimes terrifying things that he does and worshipping his every move. He, as her big brother, is her ultimate aspiration in life. He can ride a bike and ski and burp the alphabet. And, really, what more to life is there when you are three?

Here are some of the things that girls with brothers will do:

1. Fall down and yell, “Oh! My nuts!”

2. Categorize all males and females into those who have Peanuts and those who have Giants. And thank God she mispronounces because the grocery store would be a whole lot more embarrassing than it already is.

3. Sit around all day in her underwear like the rest of the males in this family. Possibly scratching and burping too.

4. Mimic a flesh-eating zombie to perfection, complete with eye-rolling and moaning for brains.

5. Know what a flesh-eating zombie is. And vampires and Storm Troopers and The Legends of Chima (I don’t even know what this is).

6. Pee anywhere at anytime in any open space and then freak out because she can’t do it standing up.

7. Forgo playing with babies and dollhouses to hide her brother’s important Star Wars Lego pieces from him and climb on his head while he tries to play Minecraft.

And you can read the rest here!


My friend and I were running about a week ago when she told me about an NPR segment that she had heard on her way to my house.

It was about fear and this man whose life was being paralyzed by his fear of rejection. In order to overcome it, he decided to put himself into situations where he was going to consistently get rejected. He did things like, asked random strangers for rides to places or even just for a piece of gum. Rejection became his goal, and through that shift in mentality, he started to not fear rejection as much.

And then we started talking about how we were already flooding ourselves with things that we are afraid of. I was afraid of public speaking – and now I am in my third year of co-producing Listen To Your Mother. I was afraid of skiing and I had enrolled myself, boots shaking, into ski school. We were both afraid of large animals that want to eat us and, here we were, running mostly bravely through the forest!

It was great story and so we ran on our way! Tra la la! We are doing this! Fear is stupid! Let’s banish fear!

Well, 10 minutes after she told me this story, we passed a mutilated deer carcass hanging in a tree about one foot away from the trail. It had obviously been placed there by a very large cat who was planning on returning (at any moment?) to finish her meal (with two girls as appetizers?)

And unfortunately, our wilderness survival skills did not kick in. But fear sure did. We shrieked and grabbed each other and ran away as fast as we could. I think we pretty much did everything we weren’t supposed to do besides drape ourselves in the tree next to the carcass. If there was a cat lurking around, she wouldn’t have been able to catch us because she would have been laughing too hard.

It was as if fear had been following us saying, “OOOOkay…you two think you are SO brave and amazing…watch this!”

And, well, I haven’t been back on that trail since.

I will.

I’m almost totally sure.

Maybe not by myself.

Just don’t taunt fear.

This post is up on Huffington Post today…they edited it a bit.

Here is the REAL version;

Meditating on the beach...strange child


As our New Year’s Resolutions start feeling a little more like crap we won’t do again this year, I thought it might be helpful to think of how we can actually bring more balance into our lives as mothers. That’s what we are all looking for, right? We want to be skinnier and have the cleanest homes and be able to follow our dreams, all while corralling uncivilized, messy, poopy, shorter versions of ourselves.

That really doesn’t seem like too much to ask, so I came up with some ways that we can all do this:

1. Drop your pesky sleep habit. Who needs to sleep when you could be exercising or organizing your home or following your dreams? Not me. I have to care for children during the day so the night is ALL MINE.

2. Give crack cocaine a go. I have never tried this but I’ve heard it’s supposed to give you a lot of energy. (I’m totally kidding, please don’t try crack cocaine.)

3. Be super-duper rich. Pay other people to love your children so you can love yourself.

4. Make rigid schedules and force everyone to stick to them like you are all in the military. That sounds fun, right?

5. Clone yourself. And make sure you amplify the genes that like to cook organic meals and wipe butts and wear uncomfortable lingerie.

6. Invent time travel… and stop Mark Zuckerberg from inventing Facebook.

7. Join a minimalist commune. Think of a place where your children’s only toys are frisbees that you can also use for plates. You could go nudist and then you won’t even have to do laundry!

8. Weave a magic carpet and fly away to a land where there is no time and no one will notice that you are missing. I like this one.

9. Believe in the power of The Secret and manifest children who will clean their rooms and eat broccoli without turning into Johnnie Cochran.

10. Become a sister wife. I really think these girls are on to something.

11. Live with your parents. Never mind, that one is just crazy.

So… good luck out there! Here’s to 2015 being the year we all find some balance.

Or just maybe give ourselves and each other a break.



Dear Daniel Tiger,

I love you. I do. You have taught my child to “Keep trying, You’ll Get Better!” which successfully stopped her from turning into the Incredible Hulk that one time when she couldn’t get her underpants on in the right direction.

And your advice to count to four, “When You Feel So Bad You Want To Roar”? Pure Genius. I’ve used this technique myself many times. I would even say that, in the hours between my older child getting home from school and my kids’ bedtime, I’m either counting to four or rocking in a corner somewhere.

I do have some concerns that I would like to talk to you about, however. First off, why is your mom the only one wearing pants on your show? Truthfully, the pants-less thing is a pretty accurate depiction of my own home, but I think you, as a role-model, should be demonstrating pants-wearing. It really would make my life easier.

And the songs. They are catchy, I’ll give you that. But, oh my god, the songs. They are the ear worms that I can never get out of my head. They follow me everywhere. And people really do look at me strange when I start singing to my child in the grocery store, “Germs, Germs Go Away” as I wipe the cart down. This is both because I am a terrible singer and because it’s pretty lame to sing to your kid in the grocery store. But I can’t seem to stop because the songs are ALWAYS there.

To survive your songs, I find myself occasionally making up new words to them when my children aren’t around. These lyrics are usually inappropriate, and because you are a preschooler, I won’t share them with you. Lets just say there are a lot of things that rhyme with Duck, and the song, “Give a Squeeze Nice and Slow” can be a grown-up song too.

I enjoy your show, I do. It gives me many minutes of freedom, probably more minutes than the American Academy of Pediatrics recommends. These minutes allow me time to indulge in my own interests, like, bathing and using the bathroom. And, on occasion, I feel like you are doing a better job at raising my kids than me. But right now, my daughter won’t ever actually use her words unless I sing the song, “Use Your Words,” and this is just making my life harder. And that’s not we want, right Daniel?

Because “Friends Help Each Other, Yes They Do”, I just want to remind you that the kid from Super Why? is a pretty consistent pants-wearer and Dinosaur Train is breathing down your little red sweatshirt with all those dinosaurs and…trains.

So let’s throw some pants on and take the songs down a notch m’kay? Thanks.

Yours truly,

Moms Everywhere

I have a post up on Scary Mommy today that I wrote in December when I was trying desperately to find little blips of joy throughout some chaotic days!

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Today, I will enjoy my life.

Even when I have to rush around getting ready for work and getting kids out the door; packing lunches, signing checks, scrubbing crusty noses. And just when I feel like I have it all together, I will watch as the bus leaves with my son in it…and his soccer bag still in my hand. I am going to try to find this funny.

Even when there is a flat tire and a frozen water pipe in the same week that my husband is gone on a business trip. I will read the fricking car manual and I will fire up the blow torch. And as I jump on the tire bolts or stand in the freezing cold shed trying to heat up a water pipe, I will think…I am, like, a super badass right now.

And when the dishes have somehow managed to procreate little disgusting baby dishes, and I decide that whoever invented Play-Doh is an asshole who has never had to sweep a floor. I will dig in, and do it all over again. Today, I will try to enjoy the feeling of making things clean.

Even when my son comes home sad because no one played with him at recess, or my daughter says I am mean for not giving her juice, or my husband and I have an argument over spaghetti. I am going to try to acknowledge those little blips in my life as those things that make us human and imperfect and…real.


And you can read the rest here…

I’m being featured at Mamalode today which pretty much makes my whole year so far.

I’ll give a sneak peek but please head over there and check it out!

Finding my Magic

Sometimes my magic comes in the dark of the night as I stumble and tuck and soothe and repeat.

I have caught my magic by it’s tail as I pushed someone higher and higher, ignoring the tempting buzz in my pocket that would take me away.

It arrives at times when I’m driving and the last thing in the world I want to do is sing and then I sing loudly and badly.

I have found my magic in the middle of a dirty kitchen when I want to be a 5-year-old again but I pick up that one plate and rinse it off and be the grown-up.

It breathes delicate hope into me as I wait for fevers to go down and eyes to clear.

The sureness of my magic follows me home from the bus stop with sticky fingers linked with mine and eager chatter of beetles and minecraft and monkey bar challenges.

I sometimes have to tackle my magic in an ironic pause as I am hollering at someone to Just Calm Down!


And you can read the rest here!


This was G’s Christmas in 2012 (Up on Scary Mommy today!)

First off, I made sure that my son was SUPER excited to fly from snowy Colorado to sunny California on the day before Christmas to visit his grandparents with his Dad and me and his baby sister.



I noticed on the plane ride that he was looking a little droopy. I thought to myself, I probably shouldn’t have cancelled that appointment for him to get his flu-shot a couple of weeks ago. But then; Oh, he’ll be fine!

We arrived. It was Christmas Eve. The kids got to play on the beach and their Great Aunt and Uncle arrived and he made Christmas cookies with his Nana. And he quite possibly licked his fingers and touched everything in sight, but this fact becomes more important later.

See: Licking and touching.



See: Cookies filled with germs.



The kids opened some presents and the grownups drank some eggnog and we put the kids to bed and played Santa and then settled in for our long winter’s nap.

I woke up in the middle of Christmas night to the sounds of puking. Hot foreheads. Not only my son, but also my husband. They were miserable. They were delirious. I was up all night worrying, changing sheets, and administering ibuprofen. Because, you see, I work in health care so I had received my flu shot. And so had the baby, because, well, she was a baby.

Christmas day.The one person who should have cared about Santa, did not care. Nana and Granddad started the day off okay, but then they went down too. Slowly, sadly. We learned via text messages that my aunt and uncle who had visited the day before started going down as well. My son had managed to infect at least 5 people and I began to see on the news that California was being inundated with the flu-virus. I began to worry that he had caused it. I also began to worry that they are going to track the origin of the virus to a plane from Colorado. The baby and me were all alone while everyone else lay in sad little piles all over the house. It was claustrophobic and germ-filled and so, of course, I started to clean.

This year, the stress I have created for myself over the holidays has made me want to hide in a pile of laundry, guaranteeing that no one will ever find me.

I don’t know why I wait until the last minute to do it all, but I do. Something in me must like the drama. But I do realize that when I find myself wanting to cry while wrapping presents and listening to Christmas music that I have reached a sufficient level of craziness and I need to take a step back and gain some perspective.

The perspective that I needed came while I was scrubbing the toilet today. Strangely enough, this is not the first epiphany I have had while cleaning the bathroom, probably because my kids avoid me, rightfully afraid that I am going to ask them to help. Therefore, I have a few minutes to think thoughts that only belong to me.

My perspective was not a new thought or even a particularly clever one, but it was the thought I needed at that moment while I clutched the toilet scrubber in one hand and the disinfectant in the other. The idea is that if I want to enjoy my life while surviving the holidays that I am going to have to make a conscious effort to believe the most in the little things.

You know, the things that make all the shopping and wrapping and schlepping and baking and packing and traveling and deciding and arguing and wrestling and crying and de-boogering all worth it.

Just this week my little things have included;

The gleam in my 8 year-olds eyes seconds before he threw a snowball directly into my face and then I had to tackle him and MAKE HIM PAY.


A butterfly girl at dawn.

AdobePhotoshopExpress_2014_12_16_13_03_26Family who dropped everything to help us.

A cloudy day that fit a cloudy mood somehow so perfectly that all of a sudden it all felt okay.

Beading bracelets and watching Game of Thrones with my Mom and Sister until the wee hours. Like almost 10:00.

My 3 year-old who hasn’t yet figured out that I can’t carry a tune and wants me to sing to her when we cuddle.

A new commitment to meditation. It makes me less crazy. I’m using the app, Insight Timer. They did not pay me to say this.

A perfectly made Bloody Mary and a perfectly made pot of chili that were better for the friends that came with them.

A wise piece of advice from my Aunt; “The best way to make something right is to go out and live well.” And then we did.

A teeny tiny Christmas tree that made its way from our friend’s yard into our living room.

Little girls with big skis.


Cousins sharing Cheerios from their car seats.


A 13 year-old dog who still chases snowballs.

Recksy roo

A dance on the beach in the moonlight with some of my favorite girls celebrating that we have each other.


This big boy with his long long legs but still hanging onto his stuffed animal.


My kids taking turns throwing themselves into a snowbank in their underpants.

My friendships that stick and stay, even if we don’t get to talk to each other very much. I know they are out there and hopefully they know I am out here too.

My 8 year-old who came home from school and said he had the best day EVER because he got to measure the ceiling in his classroom. With a ruler.

This moment right now. I have placed my 3 yo in front of a movie so I can write and simultaneously avoid cleaning the house. With not one drop of guilt added.


So. Believe in your own little things.


I’m over at HuffPost Parents today with, well, some of what I am feeling thankful for this week. I might have left out the Old Fashioneds. And I swear I will write a post that doesn’t come in list-form one of these days.



1. Santa is alive and well and keeping our kids from jabbing Legos into each other’s eyes.

2. Thanksgiving break is not Christmas break.

3. She (or he) who cooks the turkey wins the most wine.

4. For one day, eating is an Olympic sport where everyone wins.

5. Extended time with our children helps us to appreciate waking up early next week so that they can go to that sanity-saving institution called school.

6. There is the ultimate hope that turkey actually has that sleeping ingredient in it and it will magically make our kids Close. Their. Freaking. Eyes.

7. The kids aren’t completely out of their minds, because there are presents in their near future. (See: Thanksgiving break is not Christmas break.)

8. Pie. For breakfast.

9. You know your toddler will at least eat the cranberry sauce. I mean, probably.

10. If you make a big enough turkey, you don’t have to cook until probably Valentine’s day.

11. Extended time with our children confirms our belief that teachers are some kind of patient superheros or cyborgs or maybe even actual gods living among us.

12. The kids are pretty funny when they aren’t being completely annoying. Like, right this moment, my 3-year-old is standing in the bathroom yelling “poop!” and “fart!” because we told her she has to go in there if she wants to talk potty-talk.

13. Grandparents = kids asking somebody else to listen to them play their harmonica.

14. Grandparents = kids asking somebody else to wipe their butt.

15. Grandparents = kids asking somebody else to play Candyland the wrong way with them for the billionth time.

16. Grandparents.

17. The kids are so exhausted from the added effort of annoying not only their siblings, but their cousins too, that they most likely pass out at night in front of their Frozen marathon.

18. As parents, we are so exhausted from the added effort of not only yelling at our own children, but our siblings’ children too, that we most likely pass out in front of our Game of Thrones marathon.

19. That five seconds of snuggling with your kids in the morning before someone gets an elbow in the eye and all hell breaks loose.

And finally…

20. That school is open again on Monday.


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