I am an awesome mom. That’s right, I said it. My kids have told me this and they are terrible liars so I know it’s true.
I am a crap mom. That’s right, I said it. My kids are still too young to tell me this, but it’s coming, I’m sure of it.
I am an awesome mom. My children know they are loved because I tell them this every single day.
I am a crap mom. I get irritated by their singing after 5 minutes, but then I try to hang on until the 6th minute and then I can’t take it anymore.
I am an awesome mom. How they look at me! Like I could win any race and slay any dragon and protect them from every scary passing thought and then make them a ham and cheese sandwich.
I am a crap mom. I get bored very easily while playing dolls and mostly like to pretend that I’m getting tucked in for a nap.
I am an awesome mom. How I look at them! I am literally so fascinated by every facet of their personality that my husband and I talk about them an embarrassing amount of the time.
I am a crap mom. Sometimes at night I don’t read a book to them because I’m so lazy and tired and lame.
I am an awesome mom. My favorite moments are with just them, marveling at her freckles and in awe of his long limbs.
I am a crap mom. I don’t always paint her nails when she asks, and I say, “I’m working” when sometimes I’m not.
I am an awesome mom. I treat them with respect. I value their thoughts. I nurture their creativity. I make them play outside even when it’s cold.
I am a crap mom. Sometimes I lose myself.
I am an awesome mom. I dance with them like a lunatic in the living room when our jam comes on.
I am a crap mom. We battle over my desire to have a quiet home and their need to just be kids.
I am an awesome mom. I rub their sore bellies, and I look them in the eyes, and I ask all the questions, and I thrill over their accomplishments, and I cry.
I am a crap mom. I only think of myself at 8 at night. I don’t want to get your water, tuck in your stuffed animal, sing you another song or voodoo you back to sleep! I just want you to go to sleep!
I am an awesome mom—with some crap moments.
And I’m willing to bet you are too.
This post originally appeared on Scary Mommy.